Blank Existence

Centralization.

Sat, 13 Sep 2008 12:27:21 GMT

I may have casually mentioned it when I signed up for ~~bling_go~~ blind_go, but I'm planning to close shop here and use only blue_cage on lj. I've just got to centralize everything in one place, and so don't be surprised in getting a friending request from said lj! ^_^v

This isn't a case of "So long, and thank you for all the fish!" but rather "Another step on the road, and we keep moving on~"

To be left open forever: make your Hikaru no Go drabble requests here. ^_^v Think of it as blind_go chat open forever!

This will take a good long while to post.

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 18:33:29 GMT

I tried my hardest =.= Maybe I should try to fix it some other day? Anyway, for the request: Sai in modern day clothes, from the blind_go chat.

And the simple reason why gothic loli!Akira and Punk!Hikaru is not part of this post.
room101: I think I'm gonna scar people for life with the image of Hikaru as David Bowie
room101: NOT a bad way of being known in the fandom xD
phoenixboyuk: no
room101: ~<3

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 12:47:09 GMT

Himitsu! Why did no one tell me it was coming out this season along with Bus Gamer, Amatsuki, ~~YGO 5D's~~ and Junjou Romantica?! I'll have to clear out space on the hard drive for what might become a download-happy season; I've read some of the summaries, and I think I like this~♥

~~Well then, it explains why I've been feeling the Ivan and Tristen love all over again, right, Ariri-nee?~~

HikaGo/Oofuri: Since Ariri-nee wants me to continue this, do you think it works as it ends here, or should I continue?

Touya glared and refused to move from his spot. "No way I'm going to play!" He crossed his arims when he saw the hopeful looks from the team who was in the practice field.

"Hey, it's been a while since I've played on the mound. Count me in." Waya dropped the bag and headed to where an energetic boy was swinging at the pit. Isumi followed, and they could hear the batter greet them with a loud, "Hey, I'm Tajima, wanna play ball?!"

"Come on, Touya, it's just the best thing to do after sitting in seiza for so long."

"_I_ never have problems with sitting in seiza."

Touya pretended not to hear Shindou's "Because you're such a stiff-backed freak" comment. The pitcher and catcher was walking over to them, and he couldn't help but feel bad at not joining them, with the pitcher twiddling his fingers.

"I'm Abe, and this here's Mihashi."

"I'm Shindou, and this is Touya. You met Waya and I'm trying to get him" - Shindou jerked his thumb Touya's way - "-but I guess he's never played baseball before."

Touya spoke up. "I have, you know. In middle school PE. But it's too hot to play."

Abe looked at him and Touya stared back. It was obvious he thought it was perfect weather to play, but then Touya was certain Abe played every day, rain or shine. He looked like he was the dedicated type. Touya could appreciate that, being a dedicated (read: obsessive) person himself, but his obsession was go, not for this hot, sticky game of hit and catch under the sun.

Mihashi stopped twiddling his fingers, and stared at him wide-eyed. "Uh. B-but it's going to be good, you know. If you can play with us even for a bit...." His words faded off to nothingness, and it seemed his words were enough to get Abe going.

"You can stop after one inning. We're just waiting for our captain to arrive." Abe inclined his head to Mihashi. "Just give him a chance to pitch, why don't you?"

Touya sighed as Shindou grinned at him. "One inning."

"Great!"

"I'm going to strike out the moment I get on that base," Touya warned. Abe shrugged.

"It's what happens here all the time."

In training, thinking of blind_go

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 02:47:43 GMT

Currently not making sense as they try to explain a new tool to us here at work. I'm using one of the laptops (a 17-inch which weighs a tonne) to surf the internet, and I'm hoping that in thirty minutes or so this will be done because I'm groggy, and embarrassing myself in the process. I'm not really good at these organizatgional tools, but I suppose this is going to be my new best friend, either that or treat the whole team to a round of beer at the end of the quarter. *whines bitterly*

I had acquired two used books - one is Hermann Hesse's Beneath the Wheel, and the other is Yasunari Kawabata's Master of Go(!). We went to an artistic fair and they had several interesting books, like The Gossamer Years and some by Kenzaburo Oe, Kant, and Kurt Vonnegut. My best friend got one of the Kurt Vonnegut's, the only reason why I didn't purchase more books would be the copy of MPD Psycho 3 waiting for me in a mall. I begun reading the Master of Go this evening, and tempting as it is, I'm trying not to write a similar tale with Ogata as Shusai. (Heresy. How can I match up?) One of the interesting bits I read on it is a mention of the similarity between Yukio Mishima and Kawabata, and their aristocratic tendencies and how they didn't join the democratic movement in Japan during their time. I guess, I'll have to read their works and compare.

...the training is done. Off to home, then sleep. ^_^ I missed you all!

Doing bullets because I'm tired - more chatty news later!

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 00:03:12 GMT

Goban! Ordered a foldable one from the Korean baduk salon an hour away from my work~♥ I'll get it next week. Mrs. No the baduk salon owner was very nice and understanding, and she remembers you, kitsune_jade, if you were the one who came in three years ago with short hair to buy a goban. IF YOU HAD A GOBAN ALL THIS TIME WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME AND BRING IT TO MY HOUSE?!

Go stone bankai going pachi-pachi Working on Death games chapter 3 during that first free hour everyday at work. The text file size is at 20kb, which is about the halfway mark, and I believe I will go beyond the usual "3 scenes, then a cliffhanger" mode, to go to "4 scenes and a cliffhanger."

It will help if we had a decent name for Akira's zanpakutou soul.

Let's not talk about the interlude between chapter 3 and 4 for now, since Subaru-san does not want me to write him. D:

Blind go ...I don't think I should even try hiding my art style anymore. D:

Currently watching: CSI: NY Season 2 (not season 1, because somehow I got CSI: Miami season 1, wtf.), Tantei Gakuen Q J-drama (*insert fangirlish squee not for Ryuu, nor Kyuu, but Ka~zu~ma~♥!), Akihabara@Deep, Mirage of Blaze OAV. On the television front I'm watching anything related to Egypt in National Geographic and Dexter. ^_^

I should try downloading Juuni Kokki except I'm looking at my disk space, and I only have 21gbs left. I guess I should chance it if only for the kirins~♥ (But really getting Juuni Kokki is related to bullet #2, hey!)

Currently playing Suikoden 2, Persona: Eternal Punishment, Melty Blood: React, FFVII.

...why yes, I got distracted from the internet, how can you tell? D:

Fanfiction meme

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 05:30:02 GMT

* Why do you write fanfiction?
~~Because the demons will swallow me alive otherwise~~Because I like pimping out my favorite characters. ~~Because I have no life and every fic I make is gratuitious wishful thinking on my part where all the characters are me and I want me to be the happiest person alive!!!!!1~~

Because I need to write to live.

* What made you start?
YuuYuu Hakusho. The Arbor. The decided thought of fan fiction is a good way to relieve stress. Oh those were the days...also I wrote thinly disguised ~~Mary Sues~~ original fiction based off children's classics before I wrote for anime and manga.

* Slash, Het, or Gen?
Either, any, all, my cup overfloweth with joy.

* What fandoms do you write in?
...listing okay. HikaGo, PoT, Yu-gi-oh!, Harry Potter, KHR, Bleach, Saint Seiya, someone help me list this?

* What fandoms do you read in?
ditto above + add Sherlock Holmes, Star Trek, Heroes.

* What's the worst story you've ever written?
close runner up but the worst story is not available online.

* What writers are your inspiration?
Maria Rainier Rilke, Hermann Hesse. Rabindranath Tagore. NO EXPLANATION RIGHT NOW.

* WIPs or completed stories only?
...my stories turn out to be WIPs in the end.

Something light to balance my depression

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 01:17:47 GMT

Apologies for the hazy images.

I brought a prisoner home. And I purchased a roll of ribbon because of the brand NO REALLY.

Nope, can't send KHR over sorry! But the pins were too cute. ^_^

Teddy bears. And stars.

I know no one will want this, but aren't they the weirdest earrings ever?

What's on my screen right now.

Just a try on how to take a picture of myself with the cameraphone. Bad hair day much?

Does anyone in chat recall if and when I posted these?

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 13:52:44 GMT

I have a feeling these were chat drabbles. >_<

***

Hikaru covered his head with a pillow as the latest scandal broke out in the usually quiet go world. Hikaru's mother gasped at the sight of two men, one slightly middle-aged, the other a wickedly grinning old man. In a ceremony. With formal robes and a priest.

Akira looked shellshocked on tv, he thought, even as his mom asked, "Are those two go pros marrying each other?!"

Hikaru sighed. "Welcome to the Go World, mom."

Aural pleasures (Honda/Ochi/Kuwabara/Ogata/Kouyou)

Ochi's talents were not in go, even though he is determined to master it. He'd loved the game since he heard commentary from a game between Touya Kouyo and Kuwabara. Though they were talking about shapes and play strength, he focused on the sound of their tones against each other's, Kouyou's low bass overlying Kuwabara's crackling baritone.

He quickly signed up for go lessons, and was firmly installed in insei class after a year. He met more young insei's there, but none struck a chord in him the way that commentary first did.

He realized the attraction go had for him was not with the games when he heard Ogata chatting with another Touya student. As he passed by the viewing room Ogata's voice dropped to a low murmur as they spoke of where to go after the game. Heat flooded in him, and he ran immediately to the toilet and locked the door. That had been several months ago, and still their voices caused him to go to the bathroom immediately. Today he disguised his quick wank session with rapid tapping on the door, and he gasped out when he heard Touya Kouyou enter the bathroom and talk to someone about the coming tournament leagues.

Ochi blushed furiously as he splattered all over the door. He quickly swiped at the tissues to clean up his mess. As he exited the bathroom he caught Honda glancing his way curiously.

"It was Ogata this time, wasn't it?"

"Shut up." Ochi swatted the offer of tissues. "It's none of your business."

Honda bent to whisper in his ears. "Is it? Well then, maybe you'd like to consider me to sweet talk you to rushing to the toilet? Maybe you'd like to consider bending over and finding out how my voice will turn you on?"

Ochi shivered.

This was difficult

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 10:08:48 GMT

1. Pick the month of your birth.
2. Bold the 5-10 things that most apply to you
3. Strike out everything that doesn't apply to you.
4. Place the list of all the months under a cut
5. Tag 6 people from your friends list to do the same

RE: #5: has anyone on my flist not taken this?

JANUARY:
~~Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious.~~ Loves to teach and be taught. ~~Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized.~~ Sensitive ~~and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed.~~ Rather reserved. ~~Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but~~ has difficulties expressing love. ~~Loves children.~~ Loyal. ~~Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.~~

As you can see, this was a difficult meme to answer for me. D:

JANUARY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. (well, kinda!) Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners.Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Have yet to begin with my fifthmus fic, by God.

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 08:40:39 GMT

This is a post to assure you all I know what cute looks like. It looks something like this, amirite?

P.S. Anyone who doesn't specify for art or fic here may get a general HikaGo fanart from me~<3. So far the only ones who want a card from me are: lucathia_rykatu, verloren1983, and aiwritingfic~!

Verloren lucked out! :D

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 08:37:21 GMT

Isumi fics! ^^;

Ogata/Isumi: French Toast

"Is it any good?" Isumi's worried and concerned face made Ogata consider his answer carefully. Should he be honest about Isumi's performance, when he knew the young man had tried his hardest? Should he explain that despite the apparent simplicity of a french toast, there were multitudes of ways to get it wrong: the ratio of milk to the egg, the thickness of the bread used.

Or at this point, the rate at which the bottom part of the toast has been burned.

He took another bite, delaying his inevitable judgement call, and crunched through the carbonized half consideringly.

"It's all right."

Isumi's relieved smile made the not-quite-truth all right.

Isumi/Tsutsui: You are the gold of my sun

"Is this all right? Am I hurting you anywhere?" sumi was a bit breathless, and Tsutsui shuddered as he twisted to look over his shoulder, at what the older boy was doing. Isumi's hands were large - not too large, not bony and calloused like - but Tsutsui stopped the thought before it could coalesce, because that led to his regrets, and tonight was definitely not the time for maudlin thoughts.

He'd met Isumi through Shindou, and their mutual quiet attitudes brought them closer together at times when Waya and Shindou and the rest were intent on living each moment as if they will die on the next. Despite Isumi being older, it was Tsutsui who first proposed this meeting when he saw the news of the car accident on the paper.

"Is this your first?" At Isumi's earnest headshake Tsutsui laughed, soft puffs of air against the pillow. "It isn't mine. You don't have to be so gentle."

Isumi rested his forehead on Tsutsui's naked back. "I've never - "

"I know." He turned over, and now they were face to face. "It might be easier for you this way."

"Why are you doing this?" Isumi's voice was full of his fear and hesitation, but his hands moved more surely now, following someone else's lead. Tsutsui closed his eyes and breathed in deeply.

"I - I have my reasons." He understood the lost of that wanted one, the beloved one that blazed through his life and became his sun. And Tsutsui thought, as Isumi braced himself on the bed, that he was the lucky one - he could still wake up tomorrow and try to call his sun, while Isumi has lost his through a cruel, cruel twist of fate.

Afterwards Tsutsui turned his back as Isumi silently cried over an abandoned white coat.

I am not using the KHR icon for this post. because Hibari refuses to cooperate.

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 08:26:09 GMT

Surprisingly, these past few days we've been having high stress and no rest at work, which is strange, given that usually, we get a few minutes breathing space before a new call comes in. The bad part? Lots of them are repeat calls from non-technical people, and thus you just have to support them. D:

God. Tell me when the obsession with Katekyo Hitman Reborn will end. :(

London After Midnight - Shatter (live) - Irie to Byakuran <= must fic them one day. Ignore that sometimes, Irie finds Mukuro interesting.

Lamb - Gorecki
Chrome to Mukuro, and I believe Mukuro is using his magick to get into my head. D=

WIPS:
- sekrit shippy present art
- art for my daily porn account?
- something to get a hibird keychain
- the products of various memes

Another one bites the dust

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 06:34:31 GMT

I-I am not gonna make it to subrosa. *flails unhappily* Unlike how it was with blind_go fics, this one just hates me to the core of its very being. For one, the pacing is slow, to the point of being glacial, the language is trite, and the POV kills me. Actually, there's no other way to tell the story except in this pov. But. JUST. And here I am so CLOSE with 4400 words! The sad part about it is those 4400 words don't even tell the story as I want it, and I'm gonna die if I submit them in their unfinished form.

I'll be in the other room, depressed.

What I did in a con.

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 06:45:12 GMT

'Nuff said.

^_^

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 08:31:08 GMT

Uh. SO ARIRI-NEE DID THE EVIL THING AND HANDED SOME THINGS OVER LAST NIGHT. Namely Mushishi, Tokyo Babylon, Mirage of Blaze, and a few other things, but most importantly she lent me volumes 1 to 4 of Saint Seiya: The Lost Canvas~♥ I am not going to make a fanfic retconning Greek mythology to let me have ZeusxHades D:

But Albafica is so pretty. *_*

...fandom, I'm supposed to be writing for subrosa_tennis D:

***

I've resolved to purchase a PS2 come PA. D:

***

Dear fifthmus recipient,

I will endeavor to do my very best to please you, but your requests are difficult, if not because of the idea, but the possible mode of execution. Aishuu is evil for putting you down for me, yes she is. D:

With lots of love,
your hapless writer person.

Good grief.

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 04:39:11 GMT

GUYS. KUWABARA WAS NOT A VALID OPTION.

Adskfjkfsjdl;; T^T Now RETAKE THAT POLL.

Because it has to be answered!

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 09:06:50 GMT

So, Ver and I were having a moment about topping:

room101: would Kaga top Isumi?
Verloren918: Yeah
Verloren918: I think so.
Verloren918: *nods*
room101: ahahahahaha! :D
Verloren918: Kaga's definitely a top. XD
room101: .......I was about to say who tops then with Ogata and Kaga, but then my brain refused to process the image
Verloren918: Yeah, same here. XD
room101: who can we ask to process it for us?
room101: I just. Can't.

So FLIST. I am asking you.

View Poll: who tops dlkasdka;;

I never meant to break people's brains with this poll really. And Ver got a new icon out of this too xD;

It may be catching, you might want to step away for a bit.

Tue, 16 Oct 2007 07:40:58 GMT

Currently in a blue funk. Tan-tan or Alan Rickman may be the only salvation. Please redirect Ariri-nee to the depressed person working on chapter 3 and subrosa, or make me watch Perfume which will be on limited release starting tomorrow.

Ariri-nee I need Juuni Kokki/bring Tokyo Babylon/Mirage of Blaze/Bleach again please?!
*facepalms* ~~THE GOBAN ZANPAKUTOU IS GOING TO SHOW UP IF I DON'T GET THE FIC STRAIGHTENED OUT.~~

PSA: Updated post-blind_go entry with links to music and silly doodles here.

P.S. I'm still writing fluffy blanket fic for you, cousin!

There is a desire to make het fic right now, it burns.

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 06:36:08 GMT

Is the het fic writing thing a virus that is catching? Because seriously, I tend to avoid het fic unless it's a request, but here I am, listening to a song, and just thinking, "Hm, imagine that song for a Hikaru no Go het fic."

Let me inflict the song to you. [Alt link]

The Way She Moves
Stonefree

Broke another way out
Lied my way to another crime
Can’t you see the way she moves

Run another mile
Brisk so slow that I could not find you
Can’t you see the way she moves

Why can’t you make me
Someone who’s strong and does not cry
Why don’t you do mo another one
Who sings me lullabies

Blind like a dirty mouse
You hide so well that I could not find you
Can’t you see the way she moves

I know changing pronouns would be enough to keep me sane but it's quite beautiful the way it is right now.

Edit The song I listen to whenever I write Ogata [Alt link]. On going back to the lyrics, it explains a lot about why Ogata's so quiet when I write him.

About Zetsuai/Bronze.

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 10:22:18 GMT

Ozaki is fucking up with my mind. I just. Can't stop reading. D:

God what did I do to deserve finding out how I like the emo and angst, damn it.

*coughs*

That said, I'll probably not be in a good state of mind to make my subrosa_tennis entry for the next twenty-four hours.

Edit ...Kouji Nanjo is Capricorn. *facepalms* Why did Christmas eve have to fall on Capricorn? It leads to trouble when people decide to have a significant date for a birthday. ;_;

coughs Kanda Ei, at your service.

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 08:55:39 GMT

Hello world. By this time you are aware that I was the one who made no sense in mixing Hikaru no Go with kaitou and visual kei. Now I am here to explain what came over me and why didn't I just stop halfway though the massacre of the genres.

(I'm going to link to some songs later for future reference and crack.)

Walkin' on the Spiral
I was all up to doing a gender-switched shoujo romance fic when Nightmare's Ruru~Lulu played on my mp3 player. The vision of Hikaru as the lead of a jrock/vk band could not be resisted, but I've already planned out two AUs (I'm not telling the other one, I'm saving it for later) I planned to do, so I made a quick emergency call to Ariri-nee to consult which one I should drop and to sound out the likelihood someone else will write it. Ariri-nee told me to go for it, so now I had to plan out the story as to what will happen next. Akira as the pianist was pretty solid, but all the other ideas were vague at this point. I think there was a plot point where Hikaru leaves his old band (composed of the Haze people) to join the insei group, but I had no time to put in the emo. I may add it for later though.

Erlkönig as the name of Sai's band was a matter of providence. Many years ago, a male friend had a habit of calling me and telling me all about his recent readings like Brian Lumley and co. He mentioned a retelling of the Erlkönig written by John Connolly, which was based off a poem by Goethe, and the idea of a supernatural creature ensnaring a young boy was a close (if twisted) view of the relationship between Sai and Hikaru, and it just fits. As for the music that suited them, I have to say suddenly finding the latest albums of Dir En Grey (especially Marrow of the Bone) led to earsplitting but glorious moments of drunken musical delight. Though Nameshiki ansoku, tamadoi ni hohoemi was the song that made me realize I'm crazy to have ignore them, it was Conceived Sorrow that seemed to embody how Erlkönig was, completely. Also that special character (the o with the umlaut) drove me mad. Thank God for copy-paste.

As for Virgil, the band name comes from Dante's Inferno, my favorite book in the Divine Comedy, and he served as a guide through hell. Maybe I was also thinking of Saint Seiya while I was writing it. I have two or three tracks to represent how I think they sound, one being A morning ray is cold from Megamasso, which is like their mellow, normal playing style that reveals a bit of their non-experience. Rinne Tenshou from No God is more of how they sound like when they are doing Erlkönig, which is sad and not perfect, but good listening overall. In the end though, it was mentioned that they also played fast music, and Acid's Now was the best representative I could find. Why the different bands and styles? I thought that Virgil was still learning what they were good at, and listening to these songs made the differences obvious to me while I wrote.

What else, what else? The sole obvious pairing for it was probably Ogata/Isumi, though only because people seem to like the idea? I'm sitting the fence on who I like with my megane-man, as so far ~~he's been quite the ho~~ he likes to pick and choose. I did try to incorporate some of the "I'm gonna chase after you" feel of Akira and Hikaru, but I didn't get it quite down, which means a rewrite is in order. I'd actually love to have a serious overhaul of it, since I didn't really run the fic through any beta (as always D:) so the thread of the plot was rather thin at times.

Ai did mention this earlier as being the one that gave me away, but halfway through the fic I realized I was not gonna make the word count, so I snuck in 400 words or so of a ficlet I never finished based on Ai's opening line about coffee. The truth was it was meant for a writer!Ogata Au with maid!Isumi, but that's another story. That kinda solidified the Ogata/Isumi part of the story.

Lyrics: Made them up (except the quote from Dante) and please don't kill me for the badness of it all. D: The Erlkönig song that keeps being mentioned was originally written for an original jrock fic that remains unfinished somewhere, and is incomplete up to this point:

In the depths of my heart is a hidden world
a secret for you and me.

Whenever I wake up the scent of you lingers
more than the taste of lips meeting to speak
in the old ways lovers always discover as new.
The sunlight doesn't seem so harsh,
but I hate it for stealing you away.

As I walk down the street I see you in every passing stranger.

And if I close my eyes tightly and believe
I can return to you and share this hidden world.
The butterfly steals light and we are in darkness
But this cocoon of warmth is the haven I want.

I really thought my commas and straggly descriptions gave me away, people. I MUST WORK HARDER ON THOSE STRAGGLY LINES.

P.S. Walkin' on the Spiral => from the Pillows' Good Dreams album. :D

Thief vs Detective~the Stealing Heaven Mix
Kaitou story that got compared to Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne, DNA Angel, Thief and Detective. Shows you how generic the genre can be, nee? I think the kaitou story also came from a brainstorming session with Ariri-nee, though I have to admit, none of those mentioned above was the direct inspiration. It was Kaitou Kid and Hakuba from a few episodes in Detective Conan that got me in the mood for some thief vs detective action.

That and I can't resist people in white suits. *coughs* Moving on. I read more about the kaitou genre, revisiting the series mentioned above, and recalling what usually made a kaitou story a kaitou story. 1. thief is stealing not to be rich. 2. a young detective is almost always after him/her/it(!). 3. Kaitou always manages a daring escape after sending a notice. 4. Romance ensues. The last bit was wishful thinking on my part.

I had trouble assigning who will be the thief and who will be the detective between Touya and Shindou. There was a brief time where I considered having someone like Kishimoto and Kaga play the roles, but discarded the idea immediately. At first Touya was going to play detective, being straight-laced and all go for capturing the thief, but then I remembered that most of the time, detectives in kaitou stories (with the exception of Satoshi?) are almost annoyingly earnest people (like Shindou). When I finally decided Shindou was going to be my thief, I had only five hours left to the deadline. (No seriously. I wrote this one on the day of the deadline. It explains the overall rushed quality of the story.)

Touya's method of getting Shindou to reveal where the treasure is hidden was based on Sherlock Holmes' trick from A Scandal in Bohemia. It kept me going enough to finish the story. When I got to the last scene I almost assigned Touya Mitani's role in the school paper, except the photographer was supposed to be a character who would needle Shindou for losing the game, and I decided Akira was too well-bred for that. (Or Akira's voice is hard to catch when he's being stuffy. I was already rather confused by then and I wanted to finish it.) The idea of Sai's artwork is an interlocking mystery with each sculpture containing one piece. You may also notice that the pieces were named after go terms or go formations. I was then feeling lame at that point.

The easiest point of the story was coming up with the title. The Stealing Heaven mix is a play on what the thief was doing: getting all the pieces together to achieve the equivalent of the Hand of God.

Okay, I'm done rambling. Sleep time for me!

Edits: Added music links. Added a sample of how the original outline looked as well as doodles for Sai and Virgil. Akira's the long-lost Vongola. D:

sighs Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing with immature teammates

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 05:54:26 GMT

I tend to draw while listening to discussions, and today's training was no exception. The sad part was when I checked on one of our team mates who was sick, I found my sketches messed up. Somehow salvaged this one of genderswitched!Hikaru, Akira and Waya, but it does frustrate me so.

A sample of how my sketches have been ruined:

Just depressing. And they wonder why I don't show them my drawings. ;_;

Results of the yaoi manga quiz, and resultant spazz

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 10:29:26 GMT

Re: this

And the resulting spazz.
room101: I WANTED SAKENDE YARUZE.
room101: But why am I ZETSUAI?
kitsunehisui: I'm not sure.
room101: WHY AM I ZETSUAI IF I WAS A MANGA.
kitsunehisui: I really don't know.
kitsunehisui: XD
room101: I'M NOT CUTE ENOUGH? SPAZZY ENOUGH?
room101: AM I ACTUALLY SECRETLY WEEPY EMO WITH A TREND FOR CUTTING? D;
room101: Nuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
kitsunehisui: Yes
kitsunehisui: Apparently
kitsunehisui: Hahaha
kitsunehisui: And your mangaka is crazy.
room101: YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO SAY NO, YOU'RE NORMAL. YOU JUST DIDN'T DO HEARTS AND FLOWERS ENOUGH.
room101: My mangaka is not crazy! *cry cry*
room101: Btw do you have the rest of Zetsuai? I only have up to volume 3.
room101: *facepalms*
room101: So I like Kouji Nanjo songs. It does not mean I am a Zetsuai girl.
kitsunehisui: Uhm I'm not sure if I have them
room101: I mean. Zetsuai. The only thing older than that is to say I was a Kaze to Ki no Uta girl. And that is a bit sad and disturbing you have no idea.
kitsunehisui: I'm not sure about my catalogue of the manga.
kitsunehisui: I'm tempted to rig the quiz just to get that.
room101: There is NO KAZETOKI.
room101: YOU CAN TRY FOR MIRAGE.
room101: I WILL LAUGH MY HEAD OFF WHEN YOU GET MIRAGE
room101: DDD: Why didn't I get Mirage it's just three degrees off the emo scale from Zetsuai
room101: Maybe I should have said something about my angst level being waaaay above the meter. With demons and dead bodies. Right. Mirage is all about demons and dead bodies.
room101: Remind me to write that Mirage of Blaze crossover thingy again.
kitsunehisui: LOL
kitsunehisui: I might end up as mirage who knows?
kitsunehisui: XD
room101: Get Mirage and give me prompt, and I make Takaya the undecided uke he is.
room101: BUT ONLY ON YOUR FIRST TRY.
kitsunehisui: lol

I'm kinda dreading if she DOES get that result. D:

Tsutsui and Kaga

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 04:11:23 GMT

Finally getting around to making the prizes for blind_go round 3. First up though it's terribly unfinished something for my 'cousin', verloren1983, who requested Kaga and Tsutsui. (I did hers first because. She got me again this round D: Oh Isumi. I hope you feel obligated to read them now.)

There's a story behind this I swear. I'm just. I need sleep now. ~~KAGA IS SO DIFFICULT TO DRAW YOU HAVE NO IDEA.~~

I'm so sorry it's not finished Isumi-kun~<3

Groggy. Happy birthday, buchou.

Sun, 07 Oct 2007 18:08:22 GMT

I slept for 16 hours straight after a GA where I drank 3 beers. Just three people I'm such a lightweight. I'm also a giggly drunk or so I heard. D=

Also. Happy birthday buchou, I totally forgot about it. D=

Fuji does not wait for Tezuka after their training today. Fuji is not sentimental, and has long stopped hinting for Tezuka to celebrate his birthday with the team. The training session for today was short, as Tezuka is going to spend the rest of th day and evening with his family. Just like every year since first year. He doesn't mind. He prefers their arrangement now.

He goes home with Eiji, plays a round at the arcades, and has dinner with the family. Afterwards he finishes his projects, and goes to bed. A normal routine, as always.

At a minute before midnight of the new day, his phone rings. The photograph of a flock of birds soaring above the mountain is meant for one person alone.

"Fuji here."

"I found it in my locker."

"Ah. And here I thought I had hidden it well."

"It made a large lump under my jacket."

A pause. "It will be difficult next year. There won't be a locker I can sneak those into."

"I don't doubt you will find a way."

"Maybe, maybe not." He's seen Tezuka's college applications, and there is not a single college or university similar to his own applications.

"I was thinking of that too."

"Mm." It is always pleasant to hear Tezuka hesitate in voicing all his thoughts, Fuji thinks.

"If next year - " Again Tezuka falters. "Next year, let's go out."

"Only next year?" Fuji cannot keep the smile out of his voice.

"Fuji."

This time he doesn't suppress the laughter. "All right, all right, Tezuka. Next year we go out on your birthday. I'd like that."

"I'd like that too." Fuji sees the clock on his table blink 11:59:58. "Tezuka, Happy birthday."

At 12:00 Tezuka says, "Thanks as always, Fuji. Good night."

"Good night."

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verloren1983 is one of the lucky guessers once again! Please don't ask her how she guessed me, I'm still in shock. D: Anyway, it's still open here Oh God.

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I need more VK in this playlist.